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July 19th 2020

As I sit in a parking lot in the city of Monrovia, a sudden burst of inspiration courses through my spirit. There has been quite a change in the course my life has taken. At first I was very resistant to the change, but as the months go by, this change has very much become a part of me, like a second home. I’ve been immersing myself in various spiritual texts, and speakers to take a better part of my mornings as a new routine, almost like a ritual. There are great benefits that I have not placed into words. My mind is beginning to become more clear as the mornings pass and I continue on this journey inwards and outwards. 

There is this yearning inside of me that makes me want to identify as a writer, and thus the cyclical question comes to surface, how then can I express my thoughts in a way that can move the reader? Then today, I thought, how then can I become a writer, if I don’t just write regardless of what impact I think I can have on the reader? 

And so that burst of inspiration has encapsulated my being, my yearning, and I burn with desire and passion to get a message across, by documenting, journaling my current experience during this new phase in my spiritual and physical journey. 

As I actively engage on improving my relationships to those around me, and that remain part of my life, I bring joy and happiness into my life, because it is one of my priorities, aside from writing something profound enough to engage those who are in a low place in their life in order to seek enlightenment, or even methodology through my own experiences to find a way to improve upon their lives. Why this is embedded into a hidden passion, I believe is because of the perceived hardships that I faced growing into my 33rd year of existence. Though I may still identify with some of these limiting beliefs, they are quickly dissipating, as I put less and less attention on old identities as having gone through these adverse past experiences and traumas, and look forward to the ever changing and progressing future. 

Personal growth I will have to say is the number one priority in everything that follows after, and I wholly resonate with this as I am developing new habits to take foothold of what destructive habits that once used to consume the better part of me. A person that I have crossed paths with posted something on their instagram, and it went something along the lines of “What you practice in private is what you will be rewarded for in public.” 

So this is my story about practicing in private. Though I’m certain that once I’ve grown as a writer with skill, these musings will be structured in a way that it may become very useful for those who choose to embark in the journey of self healing and developing a change in perspective on how they see the world and themselves in the world.

“I think, therefore I am.”

This quote has been coming up in my thought patterns as of late. And it may sound “hippie dippie” as some would say, but I believe in the simplicity and complexity of this little quote. Changing the way we think about ourselves and the world we interact with is very important in my opinion. Because if you perceive the world as a dangerous place full of liars and dishonest people, in a way it begins to manifest into your life! The opposite then is very true as well. The more you operate in a space of trust and see the good in people and continue to focus on all the good qualities the more that will manifest into your reality. Now I’m not saying go find a homeless person, take them into your home and spend all your time nurturing something that could be detrimental to you, because I’ve done that, it has bit me in the behind pretty harshly. This was a mistake, though I’ve learned from that mistake, you simply cannot help those who do not wished to be helped. Instead what my intuition is saying that once you embody all the principles and qualities that make up the things you want to see in the world, you in theory begin to attract the people and situations that will put you in a better position in life to give back to the world, to help those in need.

“I’ll believe it when I see it…”

“Believe, and you’ll begin to see…”

To be frank, this entry, is a bit scattered perhaps, but its source energy working through me as Abraham Hicks would say, there is a deep intellect in the way the universe, source or God will work through us. This may be left up to debate by those who don’t believe it or can still do amazing work without this realization, but I choose to believe that it’s certainly working through me and that it is source energy that’s working through me now that I am able to write this, right here, right now.