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My uncle’s dog woke me up this morning. Its like 3:00 am. Well its 3:27 am now, now that I’m sitting down at Denny’s. I think this was like the universe telling me that I need to reprioritize my life. So here I am. Turns out that the seat I picked just so happens to have an outlet for my laptop too. Strange how in this whole restaurant I seemed to pick the seat that was right next to an outlet to juice my thirsty ass laptop on 18% battery. I ordered a big melt Philly cheese sandwich. Of course the first thing I choose to do is rant on WordPress. Somehow it’s just easier to drum up thoughts here. Maybe I should make this post private. Anyway, I’m pretty sure that the dog waking me up lead me here so that I could spend an hour or so just re-prioritizing my life again.

Lately, I’ve been getting this feeling that I’m taking too many things onto my plate again. I started making beats recently with Logic Pro X. I absolutely love it, I can get lost in it for hours on end. Though, if I really wanted to make beats and produce quality beats its going to take a lot of learning. which means less time to write!

Though lately, I haven’t been writing much anyway. Not, poetry, not anything really. I wrote a little in the memoir I’ve started, but even then they were more like journal entries, much like this one.

I went to a little writers gathering a couple Mondays ago. It was pretty refreshing to meet new creative faces who all have projects going, or projects that they want to start and things of that sort. I missed this Monday’s gathering. All the better because at the end of that gathering they actually ask participants to set some goals with their writing and well. I didn’t even come close to even starting the one I set. TERRRRRIBLE LMAO.

Here I am totally procrastinating on writing again by tricking myself. Deceiving myself into thinking that, though I’m not working on my writing project, that through writing this post that somehow I am still in the space of writing, so not all is lost. Haha. It’s just a shitty excuse to derail me from thinking about the writing project perhaps. O-O. Or maybe its just a form of wetting my brain with words so that it’s a bit easier to continue writing the story I intend to finish?